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READING: the golden enclaves (naomi novik); minimizing marriage (elizabeth brake)

PLAYING: fields of mistria; hashihime of the old book town

WATCHING: criminal minds; bean counter (behind an ep!!)

MANGA (CAUGHT UP): akane-banashi; ichi the witch; kagurabachi; sakamoto days

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review log


Being John Malkovich

Finished Jan 23, 2026

"Don't stand in the way of my actualization as a man!"

Put this on for something to watch while manually formatting several hundred entries in an html list because I assumed it was like, silly absurdist nonsense that I didn't need to pay close attention to. Well! No!

Kind of one of the best movies I've ever seen? Was put off at first by how much the main character is an Unlikeable Movie Guy, but for once this loser is unlikeable on Purpose and not because the director thinks cheating on your wife is cool. Nothing can replicate the feeling of seeing how much the protagonist's wife liked being John Malkovich and thinking "if the writers knew what they were doing this would be a story about being trans" only for the wife to literally come out as trans like ten minutes later

The Widow's Husband's Secret Lie - Freida McFadden

Finished Jan 22, 2026

I have such a strange respect for Freida McFadden despite how bad her books are and this is really why. Girl is a doctor writing a novella where one of the characters is reading her own novel and thinks the twists are poorly executed. Inspired.

Kevin Can F*** Himself

Finished Jan 10, 2026

WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW! i think this show ruined multi-cam sitcoms for me forever! like i will never be able to rewatch an episode of friends or boy meets world or Literally Anything ever again without thinking about how awful it all is without a laugh track. my biggest problem is how much time we spend in the truly unbearable multi-cam scenes with the most hateable man ever written, but holyyy shit this show is still so good and interesting and Needed--really really really frustrating in a good way.

spoilersi actually hated kevin so viscerally that i didn't think it was possible for the show to end in a satisfying way without getting to see allison kill him, but letting her walk away from it all and then having HIM burn his own fucking life down? incredible and everything! getting to see the multicam sets literally burn too .... superb

i spent the entire second season wondering if patti and allison were going to end up together, and it really could've gone either way and ended up well, but i actually think that "let's die alone together" is the best possible note their relationship could've ended on. "story about a bad romantic relationship where the happy ending is ultimately finding a New, Better Relationship" is one of my big media pet peeves, so having their friendship be the centerpiece of the show was so so So Satisfying for Me Specifically. i'm cataloging them as The Blueprint alongside like, sakuko and satoru from koisenu futari... manifesting this energy in my future

The Last Graduate - Naomi Novik

Finished Jan 3, 2026

"...They'd programmed him really thoroughly to spend all his time thinking about hunting. The only other thing I'd ever heard him actually express wanting was me, which I choose to believe meant anyone at all who'd treat him like a person instead of a mal-killing automaton. That was the scale of things for which he could express desire: friendship, love, humanity. But he didn't care where in the cafeteria he sat, he didn't care what shirt he wore, he didn't care what classes he was in or what books he read. He did his work more or less dutifully, was polite, and preferred to avoid hero-worshippers while feeling guilty about it, and if I said, 'Let's go stand on our heads on the cafeteria mezzanine stairs,' he'd probably shrug and say, 'If you want to.'"

orion lake is one of The guys to ever happen to me

A Deadly Education - Naomi Novik

Finished Jan 2, 2026

i finally broke my two year curse of starting the year with a real stinker!! wanted to reread this one on the train since that's where i first started the series, and it's actually even better on the second go. i felt a little blindsighted by the plot twist in book three on my first readthrough, but i actually think this series holds up wayyy better when you read it all sequentially instead of waiting for a release. it's probably pretty obvious that i'm reading a bunch of stuff by her right now based on my typing patterns...