kinda just writing this to help myself keep testing out the blog since i moved things around. i figure having this sorta list nav will just be easier in the longrun? the way safari stores site data is bananas to me--it truly is a coin toss whether refreshes actually bring things to the latest site version--but the site is currently working as intended in chrome, so it's all probably fine. ish. i hope y'all aren't checking it often atm because you're very liable to get me having just broken something randomly waha
rn Personal Site Development (although again, calling what i'm doing "development" or "coding" is bound to make the real webheads mad) is definitely the hobby obsession task Moment that becomes sooooo much more fun because i shouldn't rlly be doing it rn. i have other stuff to do!!! and i will do it.... after this blog stuff is sorted out.
i went into work today like i said i would, and came home after a couple of hours. i feel sorta crummy about it, mostly because i kinda just, like, Left. i mean, i said i was leaving, but i didn't wait to be told it was okay or anything, and i didn't say goodbye to anyone. my bosses said it would be fine if i went home in the morning and i filled them in on the fact that me being there was sketchy! so i know this little nastiness isn't based in much of anything at all.
i haven't decided whether i'll go in tomorrow, and this lil nastiness--let's call it the businessman in my brain again--is guiding my decisions a little too much, so let's look at the Facts: for the past few days i've woken up feeling Kinda Sorta Okay and quickly descended into Full Of Gunk And Coughing mode. also, the moment i started to exert myself physically even a little bit at my Physical Labor Job, i had a genuine coughing fit that made me feel like a victorian dying of one of their many rat diseases. you ever have those coughs where you're kinda surprised there isn't blood in your palm afterwards, because that's what movies tell you should be going on?
AND, aforementioned "resting is a precondition for healing" business; AND AND i don't work at a place where anyone will say anything about me taking extra sick leave: The absolute worst thing that could possibly happen is my coworkers thinking to themselves that i'm playing hooky, or possibly (!) talking about it amongst themselves for apx 30 seconds (!!) (even that much is wildly unlikely)--which is something that i can, objectively, live with, because people thinking a little less of me isn't actually equivalent to getting stabbed through every major organ and left on the side of the road to die slowly, even if that's what my social animal brain says; and and and Once Again i don't even plan on working this job more than another few months and ACTIVELY WANT TO USE UP MY SICK LEAVE; given all of that information, unless i am feeling absoutely at the top of my game in the morning, i have no reason to feel even a little bit bad about taking the rest of the week off.
Okay, So, now that we've defeated ourselves in a battle of wits, today i'm going to set up the birding journal!! i've been very excited about it, but it's that sort of paralytic excitement, because i'm not sure exactly how i want to go about formatting it--what information i'll keep track of, etc. it doesn't need to even be that systematized, i've just gotta get myself started. i'm probably not going to learn what all the birds are or get super scientific with it or anything, i just really, really like looking at them. going birding with caz was kind of magical & that needs to become a regular event in my life.
it's also pretty likely that i finish up the rest of the site setup either today or tomorrow. since the guts of it are dealt with, everything else will honestly be pretty quick to set up--the only thing i foresee taking a lil while is the media log + todo lists, and only because it'll probably be a lotta pages to make.
for now, though.... i'm probably gonna take a shower and get out of my work clothes. it is so fucking gorgeous out today, but i really can barely hold my snotty head up, so i might just open the window and do a buncha work in bed.