going...going...GONE!

the emotional whiplash in these blogposts is so unserious man

i have an awkward amount of time to fill before going out on a house call so here's a list of things i've been overthinking this week cortes edition (a real mixed bag):

• him asking me if i had valentine's plans
• him calling me dude
• him dropping hints about the concert (was this dropping hints or was he genuinely just bringing it up?)
• him showing me videos from hemlocke springs LIVEE on his phone (SO MAD HE GOT TO SEE HER!!) and since he has one of those privacy screens i had to stand awkwardly close to see them
• "sorry i didn't see your text" so he hates me doesn't he. so he wants me dead is that it
• him sending me a post i've already liked and then offering to go to hemlocke springs w me (ok maybe he doesn't hate me)
• that's not the concert i got us tickets for btw. still not sure if he was serious abt the hemlocke thing because we would have to fly out to chicago together and even i'm not crazy enough to ask him to do that...Yet
• him taking off his sweatshirt and wearing a racerback tanktop underneath???? that's not an overthinking thing i'm just kind of humiliated by my own behavior after
• him putting his hand on mine to operate a power tool WHAT WAS THAT!! also overthinking how quickly i withdrew my hand bc i panicked like .. holden ure not slick
• him comparing me to his ex (this is genuinely one of the funniest things you can do to an acquaintance which is why i keep thinking about it. like is that bad? it can't be Good)
• he called me while i was making this post to talk about carpooling tomorrow and it looks like we'll be driving together (YAY!) with a random 17 year old also present (BOO!!!) (this random 17 year old is an employee who i dearly enjoy and also do not want to be there at all for obvious reasons, but mostly because she will definitely absolutely say something about The Cortes Thing that will absolutely betray my homosexual behavior for everyone to see)

CONCLUSION: ok i do still believe when i take off my romcom glasses that we're just oomfs. which is great actually because at least i got confirmation today that he does Enjoy me enough to go to a concert together. as long as i don't ruin everything tomorrow i think we might not be doomed and we can just be best buds forever. yayy

‹ ›